I'm going to die.
Et-chan!
What is it? What are you thinking about?
The restaurant we went to on our date...
was wonderful.
It was great.
I'm in love with you, Sho-chan.
Let's go there again.
Do you think I can?
Yes, you can.
Et-chan?
Et-chan!
Leave me alone!
Just leave me alone. I'm going to die anyway.
Et-chan! What's the matter?
Et-chan!
I'm sorry.
I'm scared...
I'm scared!
I'm scared of dying.
I don't want to die!
I had no problems about dying before.
I was okay with it.
But...
...now, I'm scared.
I don't want to die.
Why did I have to meet you?
Why?
I was okay with it before.
I don't want to part with you!
I don't want to die!
I just don't want to!
Et-chan...
I'm sorry I can't help you.
I'm really sorry...
We're done.
How is your girlfriend in the hospital doing?
"Etsuko," was it?
Yes.
It's painful to watch her.
Huh?
She's getting weaker.
It's really painful.
She used to like to take strolls in the courtyard.
But she doesn't have the stamina to even do that.
I see.
But that's what you are there for.
Didn't you promise to stay with her till the very end?
Yes, I did.
You're right.
I'm hopeless.
I can't do anything for her.
I'm upset with myself!
Very upset!
Yes?
- Good morning. - Good morning.
You stopped asking me "How are you feeling?"
Is it because you can tell how I'm doing?
That's not true.
How are you?
I just got better now.
What?
I'm...
I'm too weak to take strolls...
How boring.
What's the matter?
Nothing.
Really?
Yeah.
That's Kyoko. I can tell by the sound of the knock.
Come in!
- Good morning! - Good morning.
- Good morning, Shoichi. - Good morning.
I brought you the comic books I told you about.
Thanks.
Very entertaining
I read them all in one night.
I'm looking forward to reading them.
I'll take my time.
I want to prolong the entertainment.
Thanks.
You're welcome.
How are you feeling?
Good.
I see. That's good.
Say, Sho-chan. Just in a portrait...
will you let me wear a wedding dress?
I don't want to part with you!
I don't want to die!
Et-chan...
Yes?
Will you wait here?
Kyoko!
What is it? Did something happen to Etsuko?
No, it's nothing like that.
Oh! What is it?
Kyoko...
What is it?
Kyoko...
I'm going to marry Etsuko.
I'm serious about it.
I made up my mind.
I'm going to marry her.
I want to marry her!
Very badly!
So...I'm going to marry her.
I'm going to marry her... no matter what.
It all started with a lie I said.
That's how it started between her and me.
But...
I want to make that lie into something real.
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I'm going to marry Etsuko.
It all started with a lie I said,
but I want to turn that lie into something real.
What're you doing here? Did something happen?
Suguru...
Yeah?
I came to apologize to you.
That's why I'm here.
I'm...
I'm going to marry Tajima Etsuko.
I'm going to leave your mom and you.
I'm to blame here.
Your mom hasn't done anything wrong.
I'm the one that's wrong.
But I will always be your father...
And I will always... always...always...
love you.
I will always love you.
You may not be able to forgive me.
You may dislike me for it.
And there's nothing I can do about that.
But...
I...
love you, Suguru.
I'm sorry for being such a terrible father.
I'm sorry, Suguru...
I'm sorry!
Why?
Why?!
Why?
That's not what you said!
I don't understand it!
Suguru...
You lied!
I don't need you!
Kyoko, are you listening?
Kyoko!
He's serious.
What?
I'm sorry. What were we talking about?
- I'm really sorry. - Well...
I'll explain it again.
- Kyoko. - Yes?
Suguru!
What's wrong?
Suguru!
Suguru?
Sorry to wake you up.
Don't get up.
What's wrong?
Et-chan...
I have a favor to ask you.
Will you hear me out?
Please marry me.
Marry me. Please.
Sho-chan, stop saying that.
I appreciate your feelings,
but I have something to tell you.
It's not for your sake.
What?
It's not for your sake.
I want to marry you.
That's why I'm asking you.
Please marry me.
Yes? Who is it? It's open.
Hello.
Ah!
Shoichi went out.
I see.
Thanks.
This is all that I have.
Thank you.
Did he do something again?
Yes.
I thought so.
Missus.
Yes?
I'm in no position to give any advice...
and it won't sound very persuasive anyway.
That's not true.
But the one thing that I can say is...
Yes?
It's not the other person's feelings that matters...
but your own feelings that really matters.
Make sure you have no regrets.
Maybe that was uncalled for.
Come in.
- Good morning. - Good morning.
I'm sorry to come by so early in the morning.
That's all right.
The hospital gets us up early, anyway.
- Hasn't Shoichi come yet? - No.
I wanted to talk with you alone anyway.
Did he propose to you?
Yes.
I see.
Marry him.
But...
He may be saying the same thing as before,
but the feelings are different.
My feelings about it are different, too.
What do you mean?
I'm going to divorce Shoichi.
And acknowledge your marriage to him.
And...
And... I'm sorry for saying this.
After you're gone, I want to try to get him back.
I don't know if I can, but I want to try.
It's simple for me to refuse to divorce him.
Then you and Shoichi can't get legally married.
That's something simple to do,
but I don't want to do that.
Because you'll live in his heart forever.
He'll always regret not marrying you as he wanted.
And I don't want that.
I'm not saying this for Shoichi's sake.
I don't want to hold him back like this.
Because I won't be happy.
So I'll divorce him.
But...
It doesn't matter if you marry him or not.
Even if you don't marry him, I will divorce him.
Kyoko?
Do you understand?
Is it strange?
Oh, well.
I'm going to say this as a friend.
Marry him...
...if you want to.
Accept Shoichi's love.
Don't hesitate. Go for it.
The man you love...
wants to marry you.
Do you understand?
I'll root for you.
What?
After I'm gone from this world...
I'll root for you from above.
Good morning.
I heard you met with Suguru.
Yeah.
How is he doing?
You have no right to know that.
Suffer... You deserve to.
Here's the divorce petition.
I stamped your seal on it.
So you submit it.
Here.
Take it.
Thanks.
Don't thank me.
Why are you crying?
Sorry.
Sorry...
Go quickly to see Etsuko.
I'll attend the wedding as the bride's friend.
Bye.
Kyoko!
What?
Thank you!
Don't thank me.
- Thanks for the love letter.
It's the best love letter you could have given me.
It's the greatest love letter!
Stupid. It's a divorce petition, not a love letter!
Are you stupid?
Bye.
I'm going.
See you later.
Aren't you Suguru?
Who are you?
I'm Shoichi's friend.
Your mom told me that you'd probably be here.
Aren't you going to the wedding?
I guess you wouldn't.
I don't blame you.
That's right.
Suguru.
Do you dislike your dad, Shoichi?
I see.
You're a great man.
That's how men should be.
Do you want one?
What?
Just kidding.
Adults tend to do things, knowing that it's wrong.
We don't make sense.
Marry him.
A wedding is nice.
If you toss the flower bouquet, then...
the woman who catches it will get married next.
Yes.
Isn't that nice?
I always wanted to do it.
You didn't get to do it?
Back then, it was different.
Not that no one did it.
But it wasn't very popular.
I wish I could've tossed the flower bouquet.
Stop.
Here they come!
Everyone, line up!
bokutachi wa ayamachi wo okasu We keep making mistakes
bokutachi wa sugu ni tachidomaru and soon will come to a stop
sasai na koishi ni sae mo tsumazuite Stumbling over just a small pebble
dareka no kotoba wo shinji Whose words do we believe?
dareka no te no naka ni iru And whose hands are we in?
saigo wa hitori na noni Even though we are alone in the end
jibun ga kizuite iru yowasa The frailty that we notice in ourselves
jibun ni taerarenai morosa And the weakness that we can't bear in ourselves
mienai furi wo shita mama ikite yuku We live on, pretending we can't see it
doushiyou mo nai iradachi The feelings of helplessness
doko mo atenai tabidachi as we start off on a trip with no destination
kurikaeshite Over and over again
hiiragi wa Holly is
fuyu no otozure tsugeru hana the flower that tells of winter's visit
bokutachi wo tada soko de mioroshite iru By simply looking down upon us
maidashita konayuki wa The powdery snow that danced on its way down
tsumoru no deshou has blanketed the ground, don't you think?
fuyu wo taenuite yuku I want the strength
tsuyosa ga hoshii yo to endure through the winter
kimi no mune no katasumi ni There's a thorn that remains
nokoshita toge wo in a corner of your heart
yagate kuru haru made ni I want to melt it
tokashite agetai by the time the approaching spring comes